still no answers yet. It seems like I'm getting the shaft and lost the will to fight. I have so much pain, depression, and feeling of doom hanging over my head. At least I have you to turn to, my friends. You have all helped me so much in the past. Is there anything else I could be doing that I haven't done already? I just don't see any light at the end of this tunnel. I just need a few words of encouragement, I'm so close to throwing in the towel and saying YOU WIN! How do you all stay so strong? I thought I was a fighter but this is really getting the best of me. Any advice will be so much appreciated!

Love you all,