the corner and am scared as he'll what can I do. This is not like me not to have control and I feel helpless and it seems the doctors don't want to help and just slam the doors in my face. I hate this feeling and am really scared all I want is my life back but can't seem to get a grip on it this is true hell on earth. I have to make it to Thursday to start my recovery well actually wensaday is the day I have to stop using cause I start the suboxone Thursday but I have to take to that day cause of my BP spikes if I do not. Please someone help me