... depression is so bad along with insomnia, severe cramping, spastic body movement that I am really looking for a way to end it all. I have always believed that it is not our right to decide when to die, but right now, I would gladly end my life. I don't know where to turn. I have tried mental health providers but they were of no help. I live in a small town and not a lot of access to professionals. Besides, I've lost all confidence in the medical pros. Most have no idea on how to treat. Just give another pill and send you on your way. That's how I got involved with drugs in the first place. - the doctors. So, no, I don't believe in psychiatry or psychology. I'm on my own and don't know how to cope. Would anyone help?