Hi all, I am a newbie, Not to pain,lol!! I need help severely, first I am disabled with anxiety,panic for 20 yrs now.I am 43 :(. I always had nagging low back pain,1st dr, had me lortab 4x day. I was in my 20s, I never had taken med until a car wreck,I crushed dash with my chest,never been the same.I finally left dr.went to methadone clinic it helped pain ok until sept. 24,2010. My life stopped tthat day,I have lived in a living he... Pain never stops, I cry, get angry, my fiance doesn't like me now,I am too much trouble:(. I am on 100 mg. fentanyl patches -48hrs. My break through is a oxycodone 15mg. 5 x day. I STILL CANT WALK FOR PAIN, I cry, My leg feels like its being torn off at my knee,I have L-5 ruptured with compressed cord. S-1 also injured, I sleep 3 hrs. wake inextreme pain.I take my brek through but it just doesnt last,so I run out few DAYS EARLY! My patch does good 1st day, the 2nd it is like I have nothing on.And the med will almost be gone. I sit here nowso ready to end this nightmare,knowing someone can tell me what to do. Is my dr.just afraid give me med that helps,I had test last month, nerve blocks,not one call ask am I ok. I feel my dr.doesn't understand the he!! I am in. I get there and am so afraid say much, I have told over over it is not working, I have 3 kids and a mom with dementia, no help,I do it all,or I did. I hurt so bad I dont care if bills are paid, I just want it tolerable,I need to sleep again, stop crying, I fear this will get so bad I cant take it. What would you suggest I say, I am at aloss for words, the dr. seems to not believe me. Do I change dr.I dont know,and I have no one to talk to...