So because i have been on this stupid methadone now for the past three days... my first dose at 30mg then 40 then 50 yesterday... we all know exactly what this crap does to us, so in turn, im very tired, exhausted... etc... n i thot i had till 1030 to get there today... Nope, the gdam clinic closes at 930... what bullshit... Im done, i completly give up... its no freaking wonder people use herion and other drugs, n overdose on a daily basis... I am now just expected to go the next 2 1/2 days without anything what so ever... ''realy'''... not guna happen... Yes i understand more than u could know, its my own fault for not gettin up bright n early, when i last looked at my papers tho, i thought it said 1030, why wouldnt it... how can they b open 6 ta 11 on weekdays, then only 630 ta 930 on weekends... wow... whatever... im not getin the kinda support i was curious of anyways... i read up on so many other storys, n this ones realy worried about this one, n oh no, how hav u been... me... i hav got nothing... i told my story, n even explained i was guna make the phone calls, which i did, now that im on this stupid crap, i want right back off again... i mean atleast with the street drugs, i new when i was getting sumthing again and i new when i would feel better... Now, 2 1/2 days i gota wait... no freaking thx... for real..if i can wait that long, then so be it... i never wanted to be on this in the 1st place... n i cnt even take anything else, not only bc it will not wrk, but it will freaking kill me... so, best of luck to me i guess... im totally lost n completly at the end of my road with nothing left to do... hope everyone has a wonderful day... n weekend as well... im shure i wnt, i'll b the one curled up in a ball in the corner, trying to die... no one will see me anyways... to each there own... right???
I am completly ''DONE""?
Added 23 Apr 2011:
Well thank you very much laurieshay...thats exactly what i needed to hear...im also sry if i have come off strong, or heated bc im in the moment...im just realy scared that id go into bad withdrawels by sunday, and it being easter, i have a huge family gathering, and i love being as big as a part of that as possible..I also have a 4 year old daugter, n i dnt want her to be subjected to anything bad...She has yet to be in any way shape or form, nor has she ever seen me ever takeing anything...but i was def scared that if by sunday id be hurting, she would not get to see her daddy, n have fun...and thats killing me so deeply right now...thank you again...i hope u are right....Happy easter ..
I hear your dispair and want to support your efforts to get clean. The methadone is long acting and you will probably not go into withdrawals before Monday morning. Just get your hiney up and get in there asap, lol. You have only been on the methadone a very short time and it takes awhile to build in your system, so you really should be ok. Relax and try to stay clean this weekend, you can do this, shit happens in life, don't let it control you.
We are here for you and will support you every step of the way. Keep posting and you'll get the support you so much want. I'm here for you so please keep in touch,
Hey Joe, so sorry this happened to you. IF you choose to come off the methadone for real ( and I believe laurie is right about it staying with you until you get back on Monday) I don't think you will have taken it long enough for it to make you dependent on it. You still will be opiate dependent, but not methadone dependent. I think it takes a few weeks of steady use for that to occur. This is a bad weekend for this to happen, and they may have closed early for Easter weekend, Can you get a pain management doctor to help you, I may have missed it if you mentioned how you got to that clinic. I am Praying for ya, stay here for support, and hang in there. Patti
Im not good at answering questions but good at listening and talking. Sorry you are going thru this. I have never been on methadone but my sister has for years and the same thing happened to her. When she got there they were closed. I don't get on her alot sometimes because I don't want to bother everyone with my problems, sorry I haven't seen you on here. But will in to be friends and talk anytime. I will keep you in my prayers, hang in there! I know thats easier said than done. New friend
Joebud 4-22-2010 11:20 a.m.
it may seem like that I really haven't cared I have had 3 deaths, I care about you not getting there and getting the medication, It is my hope that you do not make the decision to go out and get medication that you or I are not sure of where it's come from other than the street's, I have had a similar thing happen, It took all the strength I had and I wasn't on the start of methadone, I had a doctor on a holiday weekend decide he wasn''t going to be available, No prescription, no nothing, Oh I saw him on a Monday morning (clearly for pain) he made no apologies, things like this happen to good people, You can find the strength and I can't/won't tell you I know for sure but I can tell you I am optimistic enough to hope enough of it is in your system to get you through, You are strong enough and can do this, I had people I had to pull it off, it can be done, don't upset yourself more than you have to your body uses that anger into negative energy, I am no expert but I will bet you I've been in more spots and I don't want you to look for a way other than to look for a way to get as Patti said a pain doctor maybe from their association to maybe write enough till you have the weekend dose, if that doesn't happen don't allow yourself to fall backwards. Your daughter would bear the brunt of the scars from something going wrong if you make the wrong choices. believe me this does matter to me!! and it also matters to the family you have
I will be checking on you!
oh man joe i know what you are going through exactly. i started methadone a year ago, not for getting off of street drugs but for pain mgmt. and i had to go out of town for the weekend and was going to run out of drugs, this was supposed to be a family vacation and the doctor said he would give me three days worth to hold me over till monday when my appointment was. well i show up on friday then he starts accusing me of abusing the pills my appointment is monday and i should still have enough left. i explained to him that my last appointment was a little early and this one was late to make up for it but somehow i ended up three days short., needless to say he wouldn't give me three fricken days of methadone.
i was scared i was going to go through withdraws my weekend was going to be ruined i wanted also to curl up and just die, what use are doctors when they can't give you a break, this was the first time i asked for an advance and it wasn't like a week, but three days, GRRRRRR. at the time i had been on them for 3 months and was taking 100mg a day, and i was scared to death, but nothing happened, i was okay i guess the half life or something got me through till monday, and i suspect since you have only been using for a few days you will do just fine. i wish you the best of luck all the people on this site are here to help you not critize (well except for the few bad apples). if you ever need to talk i'll friend you and we can have a private email if you want to discuss something else. but you'll make it. hang in there. and happy easter have fun with your family you'll be surprised you won't even miss it, right now it's just mental, not physical. and i know that mental is worse. don't let it get to youy.
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