I am completly ''DONE""?

I have been trying to hard to make a difference concerning others I have to go to the Lab at the hospital after Church tomorrow, then see the doctor on Monday, these have been good friends and I am like you and everybody just human, didn't intentionally cause the problem, I don't want to get serious I am going to be fine, I don't know if I ever told you but I had Polio thats why I have such horrid pain, (I really don't mean this to complain) I care about you and every other person that comes to this site, I have never intentionally neglected but just had this to slip by, I am like Patti I think you will be fine without having the dose until first thing Monday morning, this clinic probably opens early I recall you told what time, the one thing to keep in mind is that you have a daughter who loves her Daddy, you can lick this problem, you can do it I know that care when I hear it and you mentioned how hard you have tried to protect your daughter from knowing about your problems, Make this work for you, I have this funeral at 4 PM this afternoon at the church building I am trying hard to get things settled down because I don't want others to realize how difficult this withdrawl affects people, But truthfully I don't think your body will do that, but do not take chances on things from the street, you don't want that risk, an ER doctor even they could tell by blood work that this is something that is happening, but don't fall backwards from where you've come, I will check back in on you

was not thinking straight, n ur right, i was angry and made a bad choice of words, i im very sorry once again. No matter what kind of levels of heartship and opinions that others through out my way shouldnt matter, just that u all care is all that matters... I cnt thank u all enuf, i realy hope, like i said before, that what i have taken thus far, will still b in my system throughout tomorow n even into monday morning. I love my daughter very much, n i dnt want her to see me in any kind of pain... Its now 7 p.m. i may get on here once more tonight, but by tomorrow morning at very latest to give another update on things. I hope i didnt upset to many others with everything i said or did, im sry again... i wish u all the best n hope as well u all have a great night... thanx again..

it's been such a long day I am having to work through my problem but I will be fine! I know how concerned you were, basically you've been through some difficult things and it's hard to swallow sometimes, especially when it has effects on the people you love so dearly, I do know!!! the least amount of stress will not cause your body to react in an adverse way, I know that and I can't either, it's a luxury, but there comes times when venting it was a hard time for you and a difficult time for me, I have been able to get through these sing and do them just as I believe, No matter what God does care, so I do care deeply about you being OK, I don't like the thoughts of anything coming between you and the progress you've made, I like to think of every friend I have as a precious individual, each one very different but never to be taken for granted, I believe I can come through these circumstances and I also have the belief in you, Most likely I am so tired I am going off to bed, it's early I have showered but I am exhausted, I will try my best to check on you early in the a.m. Now you take very good care and try and keep believing that thinngs are going to be well, they will be. remember I care!

I think my back only hurts the lil bit it does bc I have been sitting up at the computer desk for the past 45 minutes... lol... so its my own fault, yet again, ud think id learn faster, im slow, what can I say... LOL... Hope everyone has a great and happy easter tomorrow, i am goin to be at my best and do everything i can to make it thru the day... I grealty apologize again for any n everything i may have done wrong, if at all... I was simply venting, n went about it in the wrong manner... Gnite drugs.com... and sweatdreams to ya all...

p.s. this is my new A.A. and N.A. group... lol... we can all be more indepth and ineracted then most groups ever could be... I just had a nice long chat time with sum other friends,we all agree we should realy push for live chat in this website... it helps in every other way, why not that as well???

It is easter sunday at 3 p.m. and my back is kinda hurting, but nothing i cnt realy deal with. i have to split up this day with the mother, so we can both have time with our daughter on the holidays, so my time has come and gone, i think i will go n lay down for a little while. Other then that, everyone in here who has posted sumthing within the past few days, i cnt thank u all enuf..Just ur words alone are a great deal of help, and encouragement to get me thru all of this. I agian was offered sumthing... a xanax, n the one who offered it to me, said he was on methadone before, n was taking these all the time while on n it never bothered him. Well thats him, not me, i fear to much that if i took sumthing like that, it would def stop my heart or whatever... either way, i have come to far to mess things up now... i will be gettin dosed first thing in the morning, but if i can manage to get on here one more time before that for an update, i def will. Again, i dnt no how to thank u all so much for everything so far. There realy is hope out there for me, and so many other people, its just a matter of time n asking... thank you thank you... Happy Easter to you one and all..hope it was fun and eventful..take care and god bless!!!