... so. I am 38 years old and I have Degenerative Disc Disease and recently diagnosed Lumbar Stenosis. I suffer with severe lower back pain and I have arthritis in both hips and my right knee cap. I know this is horrible and it is so depressing that I am facing all of this at my age. The horrible thing is that I am so terribly addicted to these pain pills that I don't know what to do. I have 8 kids and 1 of them is an 11 month old who I can't even pick up half the time do to the chronic pain I am in and I am absolutely useless to him first thing in the morning until I have had my meds and am able to move. I am taking way above the dose I am supposed to be taking and if I don't take more then the doctor is giving me I cannot function because the pain is so bad. I have asked the doctors to please get me into see pain management or ortho or something because I am obviously not on the correct medication since it is not even helping my pain when I stay at the correct dose. Since I do not take the doses prescribed I am always running out of my medicine early and I either borrow medication from a friend of mine who is on the same medicine for a different disorder, or I have to buy them off the street. I am a complete mess and I am my wits end. I cannot continue on this road and I need help and advice really bad. I certainly cannot afford to buy medication off the street with 8 kids and If I don't have the medicine I get very ill as well as suffer in pain. I just don't know what to do. I don't have any medication at all today and no prescription to refill or even due if I did have one and I don't have any money to even buy any. My last dose was last night before I went to bed at about 11:30 and I am starting to get really ill already. Does anyone know if it is safe for me to just stop Cold Turkey? And if I do that does anyone have any ideas on how I can do it? I don't want to get terribly ill and I tried it once before and ended up in the e.r. 2 days later with my blood pressure sky high and my heart rate through the roof. I am already on Xanax and have been for 19 years because I suffer from severe Anxiety disorder and the Xanax does nothing for me to help keep my withdrawal symptoms down at all. I am a wreck and don't know what to do. Please is there anyone out there that can give me some advice on what the best way to handle this would be? Thank you so much everyone... I am so scared and ill and I am so glad I found this sight because I have been dealing with this alone