... moved from my home town after my mom died - im 39. i have had bouts of depression , well more anxiety based - throughout my adulthood. the problem is that im 7 hours from my family dr. and can not find a dr. here that is taking new patients. the past few months have been really hard again but this time very depressed. im not interested in anything, find it hard just to go to work, i cry for nothing, i worry about everything and feel so very alone. i know i need help but i dont know where to go. in the past i have thoughts of suicide though it has not come to this at this time more just not caring to live... it's not like i can walk into emerge at the hospital for this.. i really don't know what to do