called depression or anxiety or chemical imbalance. I can't feel so why should I live. Why my children need an unhappy mom to make them unhappy too. I cant go even at the park with them (even though a year ago I was going at every corner of Toronto alone with them). My doc added wellbutrin 300mg to the effexor and I'm worse... I;m crying three times a day... I might be successful at my work how about my life... I;m going to the gym 3 times a week... I'm sorry waht can you do to escape from the zombie feeling... I'm telling my mother why should I suffer for them.I think it will be easier if they see me dead - dead than dead-alive... I saw a chinese doc who within 5 minutes was able to find what I have--- brain dysfunction--- chemical imbalance--- high anxiety- alot of stress--- my blood circulation very poor and hormonal imbalance. He believes he can help with chinese medicine..okay lets try even that... I have checked my hormones and there are at normal, but if the normal is lets say 100-300 I am at 100. My feet are hurting... I cant I go on feeling like a zombie...