... greatly appreciate lots of advice from people who can tell me what they have done that was successful to distract themselves from the constant thoughts of hopelessness, wanting to die, helplessness, depressive slump where I think that death is the only answer for me. I have times when I could sure use some help dealing with these feelings and thoughts! I have been dealing with depression since 1996 and have attempted suicide before and don't want to ever do that again!!! But sometimes, I believe that it is the only way to stop feeling so badly. It's not often, but it does happen from time to time. I am not taking any medications for depression because I have tried every antidepressant, mood stabilizer, etc... and many doctors and treatment centers also. Nothing helps, either I am allergic to it, or it makes me worse. I am on a medication that is not prescribed for depression from my doctor right now, which has helped better than anything. But still, every once in a while I will decide that death is my only option. I need some of your ideas as to how to get myself out of that train of thought when it happens. All advice GREATLY APPRECIATED. Even if you think it's dumb, weird, or whatever. IF IT WORKS FOR YOU, I NEED TO KNOW ABOUT IT ! Thank you all so very much and I am glad that I found your group! I am 50 and in poor health dealing with a lot of pain. Please consider that when answering because I cannot do a whole lot of physicial things any more.