well started getting prescribed hydrocodone when i was 12 yrs old for back pain then as time went on those werent workin so kept getting more and more until i was getting 240 perk tens a month and wld run out buy whatever i could off the street until my life crashed 2 rock bottom i finally went and got help in dec. of '09 ive screwed up a few times since but im still in a program still taking suboxone have been clean almost yr now and im just always craving for opiates but obviously dnt go through with going 2 buy them off the street bc i dont wan go back 2 that lifestyle does it ever get better? It feels like the beginning of w/d everytime i think bout it! Im tryin so hard ive come all this way 2screw it up now