I have been taking care of my dad for 4 years, I could only work a part time job. he passed on the 14th. I had to stop working the last month because he got real bad. Now I'm getting sick and cant really work have more bills than money, I don't want to die. I tried to get on clinic and cant, please some one help. I have 3 beautiful grandkids I don't want to leave b4 they can remember me,i would even be a pill tester to get a chance at being cured. I feel a lost of hope just raining down on me.. is there sun