Hi, I am a 28 yr old female. I have been on Lexapro for about 5 yrs now I think. When I first went on it I was pretty sure I had depression, anxiety and had major anger issues. Which all run in the family. When I started I was on 10mg I definitely noticed I wasn't a "psycho" anymore flipping out about little things but I always wonder if maybe I just matured... anyway I went from 10mg to 20mg when I told my doctor I didnt feel any happier. Then switching to a few new doctors for insurance reasons they both wanted me to cut down (you know how some DR are promeds and others are anti meds) Ive been back to 10mg for over a year now. I was very scared about the side effects from lowering the dose but didnt notice any. I was hoping to lose weight but didnt. ANYWAY the point of this is Ive been so unhappy for a while now. Nothing gets me excited or happy. Im never in a good mood Im always miserable and tired. I cant help to wonder what life was like with out meds? Would I be happier about things? Get excited or in good moods? Have more energy? Or am I just severely depressed and need MORE meds? I know most of you are going to say "talk to your DR" but im also sure many of you know the feeling of your doctors will never understand or really care. Im curious if people have felt better after years of being on Lexapro? and is it worth these horrible side effects I keep reading about.