I can’t have a normal day to day life and what I mean by normal is simply have a regular transition from one thought to another. My perceptions are changing from a day to day basis sometimes from day to night where the world seems differently like a reality switch. I can’t analyze and I could hardly wake up in the morning because of how terrible I feel. What do I do? I’ve heard about the medicines being dangerous but I didn’t think I would get to this point. And then there’s also a reason why I don’t want to quit them. I’ve been diagnosed three times, schizophrenia with psychosis, bipolar 1, and schizophrenia.. I recently had mania at the hospital when I was trying to figure out what was in my head. I can’t think, I can’t rest, I can’t be, I’m losing hope.