I was suppose to have another go at taking Gilenya tomorrow ( Monday), and my neurologist just sent me a E-Mail saying we should put off taking the first dose for another week because my cell count is still high and I have the chills still. This is twice we have had to cancel and I am getting frustrated that nothing goes smoothly with me, and I am so scared if I don't go on a MS drug sooner rather then later I am going to end up in this wheel chair for good, it already has been 11 months I'm so so scared this will happen. I am normally stronger then this but with having such a ruff time since having the chest port fitted it is getting harder to see an ending to all this. Sorry all I just wanted to vent a little, I guess I am feeling sorry for myself a bit today. Hope everyone else is doing good and staying well, Liz.