I've struggled with OCD, Social Anxiety ever since I was very young. I am now in my early thirties. I've always just managed it myself and just accepted it as a part of who I was and actually felt I managed myself very well especially without the help of medication. However, years later I found myself in the midst of an extreme mental/physical/manipulative abusive relationship for 4 years along with my child. I was able to free myself from that environment 2 years ago however, it has not stopped the stress. I also experienced the loss of a family member during that time as well and feel like the whirlwind mixture of constant emotional struggle and state of mind with being stressed out so severely I believe sent me into a manic state of depression, anxiety to the point that started to affect my health. I started encountering ocular migraines to the point where I couldn't see for hours at a time. Would become suddenly dizzy the entire room would spin and at first this sensation was just something that occurred every once in a while then it escalated to a constant state of being dizzy. I lost 15 pounds in 3 weeks. I couldn't eat, I was thrown into a state of denationalization, emotional numbness. Feeling this way is and was so terrifying because you can't control it and wonder if you'll ever feel normal again. So I decided to go to the doctor and was prescribed Cymbalta. I was on it for almost 2 years. I will say that after taking it all those feeling slowly subsided, I felt normal once again eventually, and my dizziness went away all together. Other than gaining weight and the weird withdraw feeling from missing a dose, it really did help me for the past almost 2 years. I then just recently decided I felt pretty good, good enough to try to start weening myself from this medicine. I just wanted to be drug free again. Thought I could do it. Went to the doctor and was prescribed 20 mgs from my usual 60mgs by accident. Due to the label, I was mistakenly thinking I was taking 40mgs when I was actually taking 20mgs. I did this for 3 weeks and was fine until I woke up one morning and was sent straight into a fit of terrorizing thoughts and irrational thoughts and my anxiety and everything was back 10 folds. I can only imagine that the cause of this could have been due to my accidental sudden Cymbalta decrease? I went to the doctor and we realized this issue with my accidental sudden decrease in milligrams. So my Doctor then prescribed me 50mg Zoloft, and I've been taking it for 4 weeks now. It has been a very very rough 5-6 weeks since these effects have been happening to me. I'm just wondering if anyone else has gone through this feeling disconnected and not themselves when transitioning to a new medication? I'm almost feeling like I should just go back on the Cymbalta. I just want to be my normal self again!