I was once again prescribed escitalopram and Xanax .The first time I was given these medicines I felt the need to bring it with me but I would never take it. I do know I have anxiety but I'm scared to take the medicines. I'm afraid to not feel like myself. I don't understand why I have to take a medication to make me feel better. I guess to be honest with myself I just have so many fears and don't know what to do which is a big part of my anxiety .Right now I'm crying because I picked up my medicines from the pharmacy and I feel bad that I want to take one.