Dear friends, I'm a 37 year old male. I have struggled my whole life with depression, bi-polar and ADD. I've never fancy'd myself as the smartest guy in the world. In fact I feel quite the opposite. I have never been able to focus on anything other than myself. I can never sit and study. I never read books because I feel it's a waste of time because I can go several pages and not remember what I just read. I'm a professional in the corporate world and struggle to get certified as a public accountant. I can't grasp some the material and when I do I forget it. There are times where I'm brilliant. I have a few hobbies that I can tell you ever little detail on. I've been in accounting for 7 years now and I've just been made an International Accounting Supervisor while others who I've graduated with are senior managers or CEO's of corps. Ouch, that hurts. I started taking Vyvanse 30 mgs and it's helped a ton!!! However, I still feel there's room to improve. So I asked my doctor to go up to 40 mgs. I took it for three days and had to get back to 30 mgs. It made me worse. I became confused, dizzy and hated every minute of it. I hear some people are up to 70 mgs. I read stories of F's to A's. I wanted to see if anyone else has experienced this and or could I have other issues wrong with me like a bigger learning disability. What's wrong with me??