Hi all. I was diagnosed in 2008 and did not take it well. I rejected the diagnosis and did not seek treatment and have been living chaos. I'm at the point now where it is so severe and out of control that I find myself losing huge chunks of time, finding myself places (like on the city bus) not knowing why or where I am going or how I got there. I have frequent episodes where I freak out and do and say things totally out of charicter and later have no recollection of doing them. I also have ptsd and anxiety disorder and they are out of control too. I am not currently on meds and am at my breaking point. Is this enough to warrent seeking emergency or what they call crisis psyc help? I have no medical and fear that that's the only way I will be treated and get meds. Please give me some guidence