Hi Penny: Penny is a very pretty name. Please go to the E.R. and tell them how badly you feel. They have people there who can help in a situation like you are in right now. You need to ask for help right away. You sound like you could benefit by being put on the proper medications to pull you out of this state of mind. In the meantime, I will have you in my prayers. Please come back and post again, because I am concerned for your welfare.
I wish I could make things all better for you, but I can't. Don't give up. Life will get better. There are people here who have gone through similar feelings and have come out on the good side. It will get better.
I agree with all the kind words said here.
It's hard to tell how bad you are feeling when you are in the middle of it all.
Please don't live like this !
It can be fixed.
10 years from now you will be looking back and this will be just a blip in life.
You will be giving out advice instead and you will be saying the same as we are now to you.
You have got too much to offer !
Dearest Penny, you are a brave soul. By making such a big step in posting your huge statement on here. I always thought I had "depression". I cried all the time and felt I was living in that black hole (where it sounds like you're at). I had my primary Dr treating me for depression without help until I had a breakdown and was hospitalized (4 times). During the first admission in a Behaviour Medicine Unit (BMU), I was given the Phychiatrist on call for treatment. I was diagnosed with BiPolar Two. That is where most of my symptoms were severe depression. After 10 months (and three admissions later) of trial and error on getting my medicines right I'm now a happy, life enjoying person again. I take a combo of 7 medications for this but it's worth it.
I'm telling you this to help you ask your primary physician or ER Dr to put in an immediate request for an appt with a Phychiatrist ... not a counselor. A Phychiatrist is the one that can write scripts and refer you to counselor if needed. I'm also wanting you to know there is so much hope for you. Don't confuse depression with what may be a much deeper rooted problem like I did and waste so many years being miserable. You are beautiful to many and have so much to give, please see your Dr or go to ER immediately. They will not judge you. Best wishes and live life again!
Penny, I have felt as you once upon a time and believe me please when I tell you this can pass and you will enjoy life. I hope you have taken the good advice given to you here where you have sought input. You may not know us by person, but in spirit, we are your friends and want you to take care during this depressing period you are going through. Please, please go for help.
If you won't go to the ER will you please schedule an appointment with a Dr to get recovery started? Maybe you are at the lowest point in your life and feel like you have nothing at all but it doesn't have to be so hard and painful in life. Asking for help can be very hard as I know when I was at my lowest I felt I didn't deserve help or to have a normal life but it was my sickness telling me those lies. You're a person and you deserve to feel like one so please contact a Dr and get on some medication and maybe even get into therapy. I battle depression everyday and some days are harder than others but none are as bad as before I sought out help. Penny you can beat this, please take the first step
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