I'm 36 years old and in the past 2 years have had 15 bloid clots and I am having a complete nervous breakdown... I have been living in hospitals because I'm terrified of going home because I'm afraid a clot will break off and the ambulance won't get to me in time n I would die. I haven't been home in 14 months and I have gotten the worst reputation for going to tons of hospitals ... I feel detached from the outside world because its been so long since I have lived my life. I am terrified every hour of every day about the blood clots getting me n killing me ... I'm afraid to shower to move to walk to live ... PLEASE HELP ME