I've been diagnosed as bipolar II for about three years now but only just recently have I come to accept that diagnosis. Every day is a tough battle that I just can't grapple with. I'm not sure how I can go on like this. How do you get through it? Is your world always grey and dark? Was there ever a moment in your life when things really got better and your symptoms became less severe? Are you successful or just a bump on a log?

I'm considering checking myself into a psychiatric hospital for a long term stay but I don't know how much good that would do but at least it would keep me safe. All I can think about is putting a gun to my head but I know I'm too afraid to do that which causes me even greater anxiety.
The known and the unknown are terrifying.

How do you go on?