My childhood love and I got in contact again about a yr ago. He moved over one state before we where in contact due to his drug issues. And he has been clean out there and I would go visit him and we've always been bestfriends and honest and I heard about his drug issues before we got in contact from mutual friends. He started coming back out here to visit me (where we are from) and things where great but he got back into the old crowd and his friends are junkies. I used pills,coke, extacy and so on but have been clean 5 yrs but heroin I knew nothing about but I learned QUICK! I know him to a T and I could tell when he was high and he told me what was up..he moved back out here and we where living together and I tried that crap and I knew I had to stop I felt a bad since that I was going to ruin my life and getting off was literally the worst pain I've ever felt. But now all we do is argue I'm assuming because I'm sober and bitching and calling him out when he starts to be sneaky or lie or selfish. He says he wants to stop but I know he can't not with his friends who are worse off them him. I told him I hate who he is here and he flipped out and said I'm evil and broke his heart.I just am broken up, I've loved him since I was 12 and its been almost 11 yrs we are bestfriends but I had to cut it off the other day, he just isn't who I love on that mess I can't respect him I hate his friends and the lifestyle... but I'm so stressed I wanna txt him badly but I'm letting my brain take over and say NO! Has anyone ever been through this or something similar? I'm hurting so much I never saw things going down like this... I think I lost my love. I just hate all this. Help me please... thanks so much...