i have been addicted to Norcos and vicodin for 6yrs now after a knee surgery and major problems with my husband but on may 15 2011 I decided I was done and kaiser helped me quit with suboxone, clonodine, and some muscle relaxer and stomach meds..I was clean for almost a month and relapse after a car accident i had in the freeway, well lets not blame anything i relapse because i wanted to. I relapsed for 3months so Monday last week I decided I couldn't do this anymore, my husband lost his job so off course we lost the insurance so this time I had to do it on my own..Monday was my first day and 7days later boom I took 2 around 12am because I was so tired of not been able to sleep for the restless leg/arm syndrome after I took those 2 I took more well that day I took 3 more times so there I go again, how can I be so so so stupid I was already on day 7 by now I would have been so so much better Im 100% sure I would have completely detoxed by now and the pain and misery would have been long gone by now... I was and still am so @#$%^&* mad at my self... I hate my self and I hate how weak I am with this evil pill... So I have decided I am going to start again tomorrow and write everything i go thru here and hope I can have some support from u guys... i will write step by step hr by hr what i go thru hopefully this time is for good... i graduated college last year and i haven't found a job i had blame the economy but deep inside i know is for my addiction... i have two beautiful kids my 12 yr old princess anD my 6yr old litle man and i have to do this for them.. PLEASE HELP ME THRU THIS
cmon you can do this, do not hate yourself, i know the feeling, but this pills are evil, they are the devil and they know exactly what we think and want, pick yourself up and come here to this site as often as you can, im on a detox schedule, well taper with my dr, this week we dropped the dose from every 4 hours to 5 hours, im feeling it, getting very emotional, but i know i can do this, and so can you. restless leg and arm syndrome is where i fall, it drives me nuts and i cant sleep. other then any other withdrawl symptoms, its the rls and rla, emotional rollercoaster and craving. whoo, we can do this cmon, hang in there and dont give up, ive never done this before, but if you want we can exchange numbers, lmk, helpmehawaii
Hi darling, relapsing isn't the end of the world. I just worry because sometimes when you fall of off the wagon, you hit hard. I've seen this with one grandson. At least you aren't in the hospital from this. We all seem to have our demons and fears here. We get to be like a family. We're all frustrated from different chronic pain problems-good doctors that are tied by laws-doctors that are jerks-desperate-and somehow we can help each other. So write away-
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There is a reason that He says he will take you in and fold his arms around you! It is because he means every word of it.
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Hi and welcome to the site. I understand your frustration with yourself. Many have been right where you are now. It is so important that you A)stop beating up on yourself and B) put your big girl panties on and fight the good fight. This is for YOU, it is for your children, and it is for your life! You are ready to have the real you back and you CAN do this!
I understand that you don't want to start the subs back, but if you find that you do not have the willpower to get you past 10 days sober you may want to seriously reconsider that.
We are here for you, and will support you most assuredly, but we need to know what your plan is going into this. You know by now (and I am NOT making a judgement statement) that no plan, is a plan to fail. So, let us know exactly what your plan is and how we can help.
Best of luck!
Let me encourage you to fight hard and do not give up. Fight for your children and your family. I've had to view this as a fight. No matter what, I am not going to give up. I have been on subs for only 1 month after a stint with o/c for 4 months and hydro for 1 yr prior to this. I actually cold turkeyed off the hydro (10-12 a day of the 7.5s), but stupid me, I went back on it 2 mos later. I then started on o/c which was sooo stupid. Fortunately, I decided to stop after only a few months. However, it was enough (80-100 mg day) to get me hooked. I tried to cold turkey the o/c, but that was too difficult. My doc put me on 8 mg of subs 3 times a day. What a joke. I quickly realized I only needed about 1 mg a day to do the trick, but this took some weaning. I am now trying to slowly wean down to less. Please hang in there and keep fighting. I am a Christian and I know it has helped me tremendously to call to God for help.
I really do hurt for people who are hooked on prescription meds, and my heart goes out to everyone trying their hardest to wean off subs. It is hard, but it won't kill you and there is always an end in sight! It may take days, it may take 2 weeks, but it will end. Please do not give up! Think of it as an enemy who wants to destroy you and your kids. That's waht I am doing and it does help. Take lots of hot baths, drink water, walk 2-3 times a day, tylenol, and multi-vitamins. Sleepy Time tea also helps. It's not going to be easy and it sucks, but it is possible.
So how's beating up yourself working for ya? Sorry, I don't mean to make light of your situation - I just know that beating myself up only ended up with me being more depressed and you don't need that right now. I serve a God of 2nd, 3rd, 4th chances - however many it takes before I get it right He is there for me. Come here for support, whatever you need to do - reach out and ask for help. You can do this, and there are a lot of people here who will help. I personally have been blessed not to have to struggle with addiction but definitely have my own excesses and temptation - I emphathize with you - it's hard! Whether I have the same problem as you it doesn't matter - I still can help you and be there for you. What matters is that you keep on trying - you will get there. Don't beat yourself up anymore though. Write a letter to yourself with how you feel right now and keep it for when those cravings get bad. Then let all that negativity go and focus on your future, without this addiction! Blessings to you -
Hi Sonia - just checking on you to see how you were doing. Even if you did relapse - it's ok to come back here. We understand how hard it is. I'm hoping you are OK and not being too hard on yourself - life is too short sweetie. Come on back, get some encouragement, and fight the good fight again tomorrow. Hope to hear from you soon -
wow sonia i just joined this site and i am very interested in you and how you are i have a brother who takes 180 oxycodone 30s a month,90 methodone,60percocet 10s and then runs out before the end of the month and spends all his money on getting to the end of the month he also uses soboxin in between if he cant find any and he desparately wants his life back and has tryed to quit many times but too sick (he works everyday he a in construction) has had three back surgeries im so worried about him and one day getting that phone call!!!
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