Before hormonal birth control i had heavy periods migraines and bad cramps

After hormonal birth control that all subsided (on camrese) however, ive gained tons of weight, im extremely emotional, i get nausheas every morning (i take it at 8pm) and i like literally cannot lose weight no matter what i do.

Truthfully i am terrified to get it inserted but i just dont think hormonal borth control is for me..
(I stopped the pill for about 4-5 months and my body didnt react harshly at all i didnt get my normal period reactions back, but it probably wasnt long enough, i psyched myself out on possibly getting prwgnant and got back on it)