I've recently need diagnosed with major depression disorder. Which is not what I think is wrong with me. I mean I know I'm depressed but the anger issues that's the real problem plus my anxiety is out of control. I can't even walk out side before I have anxiety. They put me in clonazapam for the anxiety but it really don't help. I need some thing that will help with the anger. I only have 2 emotions anger or sadness. Then I will have days where I feel somewhat normal and will seriously deep clean my house which isn't really like me. It's like I have an over abundance of energy. Then the day I can't get off my couch. I never sleep. If I do it's not a deep sleep. I'm trying everything possible to get help but no one is rest giving me answers. My dr tried lexspro and that just made the symptoms worse. Then she gave me wellbutrin but the side effects once again were horrible. I'm waiting to see a shrink but I need help now. I know this isn't who I am or who I want to be. I just don't what to do anymore. I'm a single mom and it's becoming harder to be that person. I love my daughter very much and it's always just me an her. But idk what happened that set this off. I've always dealt with depression but have always been able to shake it off. But not this time. I don't want to die I just don't want to exist. I'm not sure if those are the same but sometimes I just want to fade into the couch cuz that is pretty much the only place I stay.. I'm just broken and I can't find help.