I'm 18, suffering from depression. I used to be known as the girl who was always positive and happy, I swear I've described as "happy go lucky" a million times, I love to dance, sing, act all of it, but after some very tramatic events with a local producer, as well as some extremely hard family issues, I've been unable to any of the things I love (dancing, singing and acting) because I live in a very small town, and the producer is well know in the acting aspect of this community. I know I should be happy, but I only see the hard/ bad things in life now, no one is good anymore, everyone is on their own agenda, and no one does anything because they care, only because they'll get something out of it, and in my life, that really isn't the case. I'm just suspicious of everyone. I'm afraid... I have a strong faith in God and Jesus Christ, and I love life. But I can't seem to escape this slum. There's a lot of pressure on me right now as well, financial, family, work, a bunch of different things. My Dr.'s have been telling me I should try an anti-depressant for months now, but not only do they scare me, my fiance is 1000000000% against them. My dad left, there's all this drama going on, and I just want to be happy me again. I'm 18, 5'6" and 97.3 pound because I lose weight when I'm stressed, I've lost 10 pounds in the time period of about 11 days before, on thanksgiving break. I'm really afraid to try this Celexa, does anyone/ can anyone relate or help? I'm desperate for me again.