I suffer fro BPD and at the moment I seem to have pressed my self destruct button, I have ended my relationship and pushed all my family away, I take 400mg Quetuapine, 39mg mitazipine and 30mg of Zopiclone a day, I don't know how to deal with my illness any more and my head keeps telling me to take all my tablets and end it all, I feel I have nothing to live for, and help is always an appointment that is weeks or months away, I need help ):)