... must say . ! Wow! Big diffrence! Yes sometimes im a bit zombie'd but man! Emotionally i feel more stable. Meaning my emotions are more stable over the long run. Yes i still feel a little empty sometimes. . That im searching for more feeling tho. It just saddens me that drugs like zanax arent easy to get? But if it works? Why not? Im new to the community and im struggling exessively with my bpd. Its these emotions. I dont know how to deal its so overwhelming that i dont know where to start? Any suggestions welcome. .