... joke, like everything I ever held so dear was ridiculous and even though I really DID Love myself before, when i read "self-loathing" and everything else, I started feeling like everything I read. I felt hopeless, like I should just stop dreaming since BPD people can never follow through with anything or set long term goals. Anybody else out there experience any of this when they got diagnosed? I just feel so hollow lately, like I need to rebuild from nothing