I paged my nurse practioner because I didn't' know who to call and obviously since she doesn't do therapy she wasn't much help. I called a mental health hotline today but they aren't necessarily trained with the ins and outs of BPD so although understanding it was alot of I am sorry you are feeling this way which is nice to say but I need more help than that right now. I am NOT suicidal or feeling self injurious and absolutely will not go inpatient. I am so overwhelmed with emotion I have been crying and bitchy the moods swing back and forth and I feel guilty because my husband gets my bitchy side when I am like this and I hate hate hate that he should have to deal with my problems I just want to pack a bag and away to hotel for a few days so I can miserable without upsetting others I love. Lost as to what to do