Jerry, there are a series of criteria regarding ones actions that determines if one is bipolar. Reckless behaviors, like spending money quickly, staying up for days, pleasure seeking without regard of consequences. The person is compelled. There are often hallucinations and a feeling of euphoria or power or secret knowledge that others don't have. Invincible. When one is with an individual who is in a manic stage a person can feel the illogical and out of control energy generated.
When depressed, the individual considers or attempts suicide, may act on it and later rationalizes why they did it. They may become almost catatonic and unable to do simple things like personal hygiene. This also can happen when manic.
And there are the hallucinations for,many. Voices, images, confusion as to what is real,or not.
Ok. There is much more, but I am sure you have the basic idea. Did you fit this in anyway? Sometimes it is one condition and not the other. Sometimes it flops back and forth. Some seem to stay manic, barely controlled. All will tell you it is very difficult to deal,with. All want something normal.
The medications are tough. The bipolar individual often stops taking the meds because of side effects, or because they are in remission and doing well. Then the cycle occurs again.
There are many on this site who struggle with this condition. My hat is off to each one who has come to terms with it.
It is sad that you were misdiagnosed. If it were me. I would find a reputable therapist and discuss it with them. I would ask point blank questions about my diagnosis and get to the bottom of this. Yes, we all go up and down. It is a matter of balance. Too low and we need help. Too high we need help. Oddly enough we don't know ourselves when in the throws of this. Others will appear with thoughts on meds and such. As we are a public forum, there are many opinions. We are here to talk, educate and share. Karen