I was diagnosed in 2000 Bipolar 1. Had a bad doctor who really messed me up with meds and ECTs. I have a new doctor now for 6yrs and have been on lithium 600mg twice a day. Been doing ok but feel I could be better. Now the lithium is causing my thyroid to go up and down. my doctor suggested in my last visit he may have to switch me to Deprakote. I am terrified to try because of the weigh gain. I am insecure about the weight I have already put on with the lithium. I am also scared of most medication due to my first doctor's abuse. I feel lost and do not know what to do. Does anyone have any suggestions that may help me feel better about all this med stuff?