Hi. I can here in hopes that someone can help me and, in general, give me some support that I am otherwise not getting from my friends or family. Im 28 years old and I have been addicted to prescription pain killers for about the past 5 years. I have 2 children and to make a long story short, it is ruining my life. I am not a bad person... this all started off as pain control for a very bad kidney condition that I have and turned into something I now have no control over. I am a slave to these drugs... getting my hands on whatever i can just to feel good enough to take care of my children, good enough to sleep at night. I desperately need out of this. I dont know what to do. I am so sick when I dont take them, I have major mood swings and snap at everyone. I take about 50 to 60mgs a day for the past couple of years and I cant even begin to imagine how bad the withdrawls are going to be from this but I HAVE to stop... for my children and for myself. Does anyone have any advise for me? Should I try methadone (which I heard is worse to try to get off of) or suboxone??? HELP PLEASE...