the war really changed me pdsd but they are trying to steer clear clear of benzos or oppiets i can get my zanax if im in a asslym type atmosphere i got my own problems i dont want want to be around ouhers that are worse off than me the zannys help me around people i cant even be around my wife or mother friends with theem im not an addict i just want to be normal at this point i can only see 2 ways out mexico where they are like candy or my wepon. but i loved life once funny how a little of a friends brain matter in ur face can change things. im not look in for self pitty just a soultion or will there ever be one.the way i see it my life insurance would in this state im no good to myself or any one else like thisooh god what can i do?
i have no idea what your question is but unless your buying it from a licensed pharmacy your doing something illegal and risking your own health. they have found antipsychotics in some of the benzos they send out which can cause some bad side effects, more often than benzos. since there is no way to tell if these are made properly they could have too much, too little or non of the intended active ingredient
I also have PTSD. I was a child, maybe 8 or 9 when my mom started going psychotic (literally). They later diagnosed her as Bipolar. I have flashback of all the times she flipped out and went crazy. It scared me so much. I had no one to turn to do to the fact that my dad was gone all day working to support a family. Now war.. war is different and I'm obviously not comparing my experience with yours. I've never been to war. I can't imagine how it affects you psychologically. I also turned to drugs. My drug was Ketamine. It was amazing. It made me normal after a while. It got to a point where I got caught (I worked at a vet clinic and had access to all the controlled substances). They basically found that some drugs were missing (I had taken 11 bottles of ketamine, 3 bottles of diazepam, 35 bottles of Fentanyl, and a bottle of Butorphanol.) It took them 2 years to figure it out. So they had everyone do drug test (I thought crap! I'm screwed!) I confessed and went to the clinic to tell the owner I was sorry. Waiting for me were 2 police man (they were rookies, I could tell). They listened to my story while I was sobbing. They then put the handcuffs on and took me to jail. I was in jail. I didn't know what to do or how to do it because I've never been in jail. I thought I was going to be in there for life. They actually let me out the next day if I went to rehab. I new I wasn't addicted, I still don't think I'm an addict. I had to meet with a psychologist bi-weekly and go through a month of rehab. Rehab helped, but my psychologist helped more. They teach you you're not alone, They teach you ways to cope with life (especially the PTSD, the nightmares, the Flashbacks). Man it's not worth taking your life. You can get help like I did. You might not be an addict but you need help. Everybody needs help. Find a Psychologist at least and talk to them. They have some way of teaching you new ways to deal with life. At first I thought I don't need this. I just did drugs to feel good and I feel fine without them too. But still. Everyone can use some help in life. Fine a psychologist man. I'll add you as a friend and we can chat private if you want. Peace
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