the war really changed me pdsd but they are trying to steer clear clear of benzos or oppiets i can get my zanax if im in a asslym type atmosphere i got my own problems i dont want want to be around ouhers that are worse off than me the zannys help me around people i cant even be around my wife or mother friends with theem im not an addict i just want to be normal at this point i can only see 2 ways out mexico where they are like candy or my wepon. but i loved life once funny how a little of a friends brain matter in ur face can change things. im not look in for self pitty just a soultion or will there ever be one.the way i see it my life insurance would in this state im no good to myself or any one else like thisooh god what can i do?