So they had to resuscitate me bring me back to life I was in a coma for a few weeks I had a seizure and a stroke I was in the hospital for 3 months I'm not boo-hooing on myself the problem was it all started I was clean after the accident and then this past September I was diagnosed with stage-4 melanoma skin cancer so now I want all this medication that I had work so hard to get off of my pain medication tolerance is through the roof. So I finally told my doctor my situation and they got me to a comfortable medication routine but now I'm struggling because I've been on this medication for so long you know not so long but you know 10 years of my life up until a year ago and then since September I was diagnosed with stage 4 melanoma and all the medication that comes with that and my tolerance being through the roof it kind of made it very hard to find a comfortable medication that allowed me to be comfortable just sitting there or laying there in bed because I cannot move it hurts to bad. I have swollen lymph nodes and the cancer has spread to my lungs and my back so I'm kind of a a crossroad I obviously need to take the medication while it hurts but how long is that going to last and there's a very poor survival rate of the melanoma I have but it's getting better