I started with depression 13 years ago and it wasnt too frequent. Now I am ill every 3 months it's hell. I now seem to get anxious and dont want to leave the house unless I have to and really struggle to even make a conversation with anyone including my family. When I am well I can talk and talk and love chatting with people. I have a great family but feel they are all under huge stress now and dont know what to do. Seen my doc whose referring me to a mental health team this could take a while. I now also have bad jaw clenching in the morning and my teeth hurt. Never used to get this I seem to have deteriorated over the years and have lost myself completely. I'm not the same person anymore. My coping mechanism with life feels broken and I don't cope with anything anymore. I used to be so strong and in control I am actually having very dark thoughts at the moment