Hey guys. I just wanted to get some advice. I am currently 32 years old and have been on Vicodin for the last 5 years. Before that i was a heavy pot smoker since my junior year in college but stopped 5 years ago when I had a terrible panic attack from it. I graduated with a bachelors in business management with a 3.85 gpa in 2004 and since then been pretty much unemployed because I was always on drugs and that's all I wanted in life. I tried doing some Internet selling from time to time but it's not working out anymore. I have tried applying for jobs but no one calls me because of my lack of work experience. I have 3 kids now and my wife has a job that basically pays the bills. We live in an apartment. I have quit the pills a few times so I can get my life together but when no one is calling me I start buying them again as I can't take the hopelessness and despair. I really love my kids and would love to provide them a good life but I can't seem to get a job. They call but never follow through. Like I said I'm 32 but very smart but to be honest with you I feel like my life is over. Every time I think about all the years that have passed doing nothing and constantly being on pills it drives me crazy and gives me panic attacks. It's gotten so bad that when I wake up and realize how things are it scares me into waking up. I can't go to sleep after that. I tried talking to my parents and brothers but they are cold and have no interest in listening to me. In my culture emotions are not really shared between guys. It's killing me inside that no one is listening. I feel like I'm in a very deep hole and to be honest with you I don't see light at the end of the tunnel. Does anyone have any advice on what I should do?. I have no idea where to go.