2 surgeries later, Physical therapy, chiropractic treatment etc... etc... and still my back is not fixed why is this? I had a fusion surgery years ago and another one recently at one point I was practically crippled and could barely walk. I'm going for another MRI I lost count how many of them I have had. and been on pain killers for years, what is my next step now that I am addicted to these pain killers and wonder if I will die in my sleep. It is crazy this revolving door. I often wonder if some or most of the pain could be caused by not taking the pain medication, it does not feel like it is, I actually feel the pain specific to my spine. I have been on them so long I really fear not taking them thinking I will have a heart attack or stroke since I am on high blood pressure med, and am on blood thinner, and cholesterol pills and sleeping pills. and the points of depression in and out sometimes are bad. I didn't have the sleeping pill one night and took sleep-eez and felt like I was having a stroke or something it was the worst feeling I ever had and it was only one night. am I at the end of the trail and probably need to check into a rehab. I did that once but the people in there were violent and I could not even take it one night I left the next day. is there any hope at this stage???
Sure there's hope. Why do you feel you are addicted to the pain meds? Your body has grown tolerant of them, and if you stopped them you would go through horrible withdrawal, but that's the same as a lot of other meds. Are you abusing them - taking more than your doctor prescribed? That's what changes it to addiction - if you are abusing them.
Sounds like you have a lot of health problems, and a lot of pain. So do many others on this site, including myself. No, chances are you aren't going to get the life back that you had before your spinal surgeries. But you still are alive, you have people in your life that you love, and some that love you. It may indeed be a very hard life, but there are moments that make it worthwhile. And you keep on plugging - going to physical therapy to keep as strong as possible, going out whenever you can, finding the little things you can do, people you can help. It doesn't have to be a lot to make life worthwhile.
Find the things that make your day - that make you smile. Then work hard to keep being able to do those! And don't give up. Are you in pain management? I know mine does procedures to deaden nerves that help me. Does it make me better? No, but every bit helps. And those docs are the ones that know new procedures and surgeries that might help you. Keep in the loop, keep moving, and find those things in life that make it worthwhile. Remember to keep your brain busy - distraction is the best pain medicine. I find I do my best when I'm helping someone else. For me, that's the best pain relief. But to answer your question - yes, there is always hope! ElizaJane
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