I'm 28 years old. I don't drink, smoke, or do any other drugs. I'm in good health and good shape. But painkillers are my one and only DOC.
I used to take Vicodin every now and then - I remember the times I'd take 5mg and get that itchy feeling all over for hours. Then I moved on to taking 5mg percs every so often. I was always responsible with these irresponsible things.
Then I was introduced to "blues" aka roxicodone aka oxycodone hcl 30mg. I started taking 1/4 of the pill in place of vics/percs every now and then. Fast forward a year later and I'm taking 45-90mg/day every day.
My body "needs" at least 45mg of oxycodone each day. Any less is uncomfortable. I've been able to continue living my life, make 200k/yr, and keep it a secret from everyone around me. But once I got up to 4 pills a day I said enough is enough. Happy? I'd take a pill to celebrate. Sad? I'd take a pill to pick me up. Can't sleep? I'd take a pill to help me relax and sleep. Tired and groggy? I'd take a pill to wake up me and give me energy. Big day of work? I'd take a pill to get me in "game mode". Easy day of work? I'd take a pill to celebrate. That's when you know it's a problem and it's only quicksand from there.
I've taking days off here and there. For me, I get very bad sweats and chills, but besides that everything else is manageable. The PAWS is bad though. I can't focus, I'm lazy, I'm depressed, and I have no motivation. I know this is normal, but I can't afford to deal with it - my job is too demanding and too important.
So I went to the doctor and made the switch to suboxone. I did the following:
Day 1: 2mg
Day 2: 1.5mg
Day 3: 1mg
Day 4: 1mg
Day 5: .80mg
Day 6: .60mg
Day 7 (today): .40mg
It's good because mentally I feel "sober" for the first time in a while and I'm prepared to be mentally sober for good.
My question is - I don't want to be on suboxone for maintenance and then deal with even longer withdrawl than oxycodone.
For the experts - how should I finish my taper? What can I expect? I'm working out and taking vitamins and such. I have clonidine and xanax.
Thanks and God bless,