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wanting a pill
Well today is 22 days clean for me and I'm honestly thinking about getting off Suboxone and getting another rx of Oxycodone....I swear the Suboxone doesn't help all the time with my cravings. Anyone else have this problem? I really miss that high...even with everything I stand to lose like my husband, child, family support, the need is still very much alive in me. I know they say it takes time for the Oxy to even clear out of your system, but somedays I really question if I'm able to stay clean. Some days I really don't want to.
Stay strong April! Think of the hell you've been through, and of how much you deserve to be free from the active cycles of addiction. Do whatever it takes to not regress. Hold on tight to your children, husband and family. You are lucky to have them, and all the more, aside from your own well being, those precious reasons to not use.
Imagine your life without them - and that it will likely become your reality if you dont keep fighting the fight.
The trauma of merely imagining all of that loss may urge you to use in and of itself. Dont let it be a trigger, let that thought be a motivation to stand your ground.
You CAN do this. Want it. Dont let those nasty demons get the best of you. Its addiction rearing its ugly head, making you want tbat high. Its not a high, its a spiritual and physical prison. Its a death sentence. Get mad, fight that beast!!
Stay strong, please.
you gotta want this. no amount of listening to people on here is gonna solve that for you. what dose of sub are you currently on.? do you take it same time every day. ? whats your routine...
Originally Posted by april0279
subs should be eliminating those cravings. but you need to do some work also. like get to a meeting. go talk to some addicts.... and also mate. being on subs is not being clean. you are still on opiates.
you know the drill. fight thru this. or use. thats your only two choices right now... so what is it. ? live or die.
The answer to your problem is simple- dont use. Just the fact that we still crave and may possibly use, knowing what will happen to us tells you how sick people with addiction are. As cheeky said its up to you if you decide to use or not. The only thing i can say is i do understand where your at but if you just dont use it does get better. Its all up to you.I am praying for your families sake you will hang on and not give in to the selfishness addiction. Because thats where addiction differs other diseases. Its hurtful, and selfish. Just dont use!
Clean and Sober as of 4-25-2011
nice post shy. and GOOD ON YA, you are doing well. great to see....
Originally Posted by shybaybe2003
hey april, what dose of subs are you currently on??
That's the "obsessive, compulsive" nature of the disease of addiction. Normal people do not crave an oxycodone pill 22 days after inducting onto Suboxone. For me, the obsession to use drugs again was lifted at about 90 days after I completely detoxed off of everything, which took me a year beginning in January 2009 to induct, taper and detox. I also went to NA and AA meetings and began a program of recovery that is working and I have been completely clean for 18 months. I feel great and rarely even have a thought of using. It does occasionally happen, but I have methods for dealing with it now that I didn't have with 22 days. Don't give up or give in...give it all you have because it's worth it.
my boyfriend told me that he learned in rehab that cravings generally last 5-7 minutes and if you can distract yourself or stay busy during those minutes it will pass but if you just obsess over it and keep thinking about it it will just keep repeating. they recommend exercise to release natural endorphins
things will get easier.. the cravings will start to fade, ull slowly replace ur old addictive habits with new, fun healthy ones... i kno i dont know u guys at all, but, been there... i know exactly where your coming from...
i really wish that i had had the strength that all u guys have... to have made the choice on my own... the amount of support that u all have in each other... keep going strong
when i finally cleaned up... i had rehab and, well jail to make me... considerably eaier to kick the habit that way lol. no opportunity (or very little) of temptations to lead to the cravings, slipping, using and such. your doing it on by choice..... i admire all you guys for that.... and dont forget congratulations so far ...
it took me awhile to put my life and family back together... (lost them for 3 years)..but i did... and seeing them proud of me... thats what made it all worthwhile, the most important...
in an an earlier post i saw here you spoke of your family... use them as ur motivation... no matter how bad those cravings get... think of ur family...
congrats on another day clean, keep it up