Two weeks clean from pain meds!

[Jacqu1234]

Hi I'm new here, I am two weeks cleam from pain pills.. (any kind of pain meds it really didn't matter) At first I was taking the meds for back pain which I still have and I'm sure I always will. Then after a few months I really liked the way it made me feel and I loved that I didn't have to deal with anything I didn't want to deal with. These last two weeks have sent me looking for the reason I started and to tell you the truth I'm just not sure other than liking the way it may me feel. But hay I'm here and I'm two weeks clean well I shpuld say two weeks and four hours clean!!!!! I still get this strange feeling deep down inside like something bad is about to happen and I have to say it's pretty scary! I have been doing this for the last two weeks by myself . My family doesn't know nor do I want them to know.I guess I'm on here to have someone to talk to! Any help I can get would be GREAT!

[iloerose]

Drugs are out of your system by now. Yup, addicts love the way those pills make us feel. My best advice to you is to get to an NA meeting or CR. The struggle now is to stay clean. That feeling that something bad is going to happen is common. You can talk on here as well. Congratulations on your two weeks, and believe me, you want to stay that way! Good for you.

Peace,

Iloerose

[Jacqu1234]

Thanks iloerise,
Your so very right I REALLY want to stay this way. I keep reading all the post on here and it really has help these last two weeks. Now if I could just get that feeling to go away I think I could do this! Well I'm going to do this !! Thats all there is to it. I have a very sweet little girl and boy that needs me clean and needs me to be the best mom I can be and thats not popping pills!

[Jacqu1234]

The more I set and think about the past few years I keep coming back to the same day march 4 1998 was the day that my husband and I lost our little girl. I've tryed to stay strong for everyone else and never dealing with the lost myself. So in the long run what I have done was just let down those I was trying to be stong for! Talk about a know win situation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[christyk]

Well I am at the end of day 5! Survived another day
Without pain Med! I was taking approx. 10 hydrocodones
A day for the last year. Sad to say I was never even prescribed
Any. Days 1,2,3 were hellish. Day 4 was tolerable but still bad.
Today I woke up with 0 pain! The only symptoms I had were
Anxiety/fatigue. I feel tomorrow will be even better!