Hello everyone, I am crying as I write this. I have found myself addicted to painkillers once again. I have been here before, in 2006 I was addicted to Oxycontin and was on Methadone for 1.5 years, tapered completely off to 2 mgs and was clean for over three years. An injury in October quickly found me addicted to vicodin, then percocet. I had surgery and then the painkillers stopped so I had to get them other (and wayy more expensive ways). I need to be done. No one knows about this. I can't bear to tell my family or boyfriend. they have already stuck by my once they do not deserve to be put through this again. My habit is small, only about 30 mg oxy a day but I can feel myself wanting more and turning into a different person. People at work are noticing, it's just not good. I have two 8mg suboxone strips that I can use and clonidine as well.
Please someone tell me it's going to be ok, I just needed to get this out somewhere because I cannot hold it in any longer and refuse to burden my family again with this addiction. Thank you.