my mom has been addicted to pain killers ( mostly oxys) for years (6+)... for a while she was ordering extra off the internet.
i have called the ambulance to the house numerous times because i thought she might stop breathing all together since her breathing was so shallow. she always runs out early, a week -10 days early was normal for her. this month she took the whole months supply in about 7 days. she has been calling me to see if i could get her street drugs, or if i had any vicodin left (i was prescribed 15 in the hospital 2 weeks earlier for plantar fesitous (sp?))
one day i showed up at her house and she wasnt home and wouldnt answer my phone call i was getting worried since earlier that morning she was freaking out about how she didnt want to live any more and that she just wanted to go be with my grandma (who died in feb.) every few months i feel like i go through this with her, beg her to want to live. beg her to want to stick around for me (19) and my 15 year old sister. i moved out when i was 16 because i couldnt take it any more., i have called the ambulance to the house at least 10 times over 4 years. i used to wait for the phone call every day that my mother had passed away due to ODing. she had a 3 level spinal fusion 1.5 years ago and promised me and my sister that she would go to treatment but it never happened and the usage just kept getting greater and greater. she is only awake a few hours aday.
finally the other day i had enough because once she answered the phone she told me that "oh i realized i forgot some pill up at the old house" LIES she was getting more from a "friend"
when i was 16/17 i did help her get pills more than once because it was just easier and it ment i got to spend some time with my mom. i wish i would have never done it because now she still asks and i gave up those types of friends a long time ago. now i have an actual medical condition with my feet and i work standing 40+ hours a week and she thinks i should give her pills i dont have.. i understand she has a back injury but she is an addict who is risking so much more than she realizes
WELL I CALLED her pain management doctor and reported her.. she was already borderline with them because she has been UAed before and none of her meds showed up .
i asked to remain anonymous and they told her what i said word for word.. now she is totally cutting me out of her life and all she can say to me is how much ive ruined her life (what about my life mom?) and now my sister hates me as well. im not allowed over there any more and neither of them want contact with me... but deep down i think i did the right things, and if i could go back in time i think i would do it again.. yes i feel guilty but im scared to loose my mom ... i just wish her and my sister didnt hate me now