let me explain a little back story. i got in this mess a little over 3 years ago when i had my twins via emergency c-section. not quite because of the pain meds after but more from the damage that the spinal caused. the spinal block caused damage to 4 discs in my back and at some point i could barely walk. i got into a pain clinic and the doctor was very willing to prescribe whatever i needed. at that time i thought that was wat i needed boy was i wrong. here i am 2 years later and im in big trouble.... im addicted and pregnant! how do i do this? i cant go to a dr for treatment because when my twins were 7 months old they were taken off of my husband and i because my dad hurt my son. it took years for me to get them back and i havent even had them back for 6 months and here i am in this mess. the addiction did NOT come til after my sons were taken so i think part of the reason i reached for pills (mainly percs) was because of all the stress from not having my sons. i cant go to a dr if cyf finds out they will take my sons and i WILL NOT have that. im on day 2 of wd and im scared im going to hurt this baby with this... what do i do?? im 11 weeks so this baby has had 11 weeks of pills and im not sure if it can be dependent on that with such little time but im not sure. i was not taking many pills maybe 5 or 6 a day sometimes a few more if it was a highly stressful day or a really bad pain day because the normal dose just didnt help with pain any more. none of my family knows of my addiction. my husband and i are on the rocks, not because of my addiction but because hes just not considerate and he tends to be mean to me. im on bed rest because cramping started about 3 weeks ago and the dr wasnt sure why... even on bed rest i still have to take care of my twins clean the house and cook because he feels that if he works 5 hours a day he shouldnt have to do any of it not thinking about me or the baby and im not really sure he even cares. so if i were to tell him of my addiction he could use it against me to get my sons off me. i am using anti- diarrhea meds to help with the diarrhea because that seems to be the hardest part of wd for me but i have no energy to take care of my kids and no real support system to help me how do i do this. i NEED to do this. im already on day 2 and i cant see going back now. not to mention i have no money to buy any so theres no way i can buy any to begin with and couldnt trust myself to wean off. i tried that with my last script and still wound up 2 weeks short so theres no way i can do that. how long will this last when does the "hump" come? ive never gotten through more than 3 days of wd so im not sure what to expect. can anyone help me here?