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Am I doing better...or worse?
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    super_mom is offline Junior Member
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    Been on hydro 10mg since a spinal/back nerve injury resulting from "treatment" for sudden headaches, both of which we're still trying to identify. This happened in the beginning of November 2011. Never had significant headaches OR chronic pain before. Of course, I began taking them as prescribed, one every 6, then 1.5 every 6 and then 2 every 6....sometimes every 4. You know the drill. Soon i was running out too early and the last time, I told my neuro's office that I was clearly becoming more dependent on them and I posted here about the ridiculous taper they put me
    On even though I was honest about my use because I don't know what pain is real and what's not. They dropped me to ONE 10mg twice daily for a week, then 1/2 for a week then stop. Added 0.1 of clonidine once a day and made sure the rx stated "as needed for withdrawal" (jerk).

    I decided this was wrong and after calling the local addiction specialists and pain management clinics to find out my options for a realistic taper, I decided that I would go ahead and talk to my primary doctor about it and tell him that I WANT to be off everything and start over, but after six months of steady use, even if I had been taking as prescribed, which I was not toward the end, I would have has to have been tapered off on a longer schedule. She was very understanding although I was terrified to talk about it and she could tell. I told her the story and she agreed the original plan was nuts.

    She prescribed 7.5 mg and instructed me to take 1 to 4 daily, clonidine twice daily since my BP has been high anyway, and to call and see how things are going.

    Well, I began with the instructions as rx'd then realized I felt like I needed to take two at a time instead of one just to stay out of pain AND w/d (honestly I don't know anymore which is which anymore) and I'm going to run out too soon doing that. I know that I've decreased my overall dosage throughout the day even taking two at a time, but I'm going to be out sooner than it was written and I feel terrible that I am
    Still taking twice as much as she rx'd, especially after she was nice enough and professional enough to save my ass. I want to ask if she can bump it down to 5 or keep it at 7.5 and see if I can decrease even more. I mean even if I am taking two at a time, I'd still be taking more than I was, already going from 20mg per dose to 15 and maybe I can go to 10 or see if I can alternate 7.5 and 15 and keep working on it. Either way, I definitely feel sucky that I
    Didn't follow, but am I at least doing better? How to do
    I present this to her?
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    Well, it doesn't matter much because when I called to tell her nurse that I was taking sometimes two instead of one, she reminded me of the rx instructions and that doc won't be changing my dose and if I don't follow the instructions, she will stop writing th for me, etc. I totally understand, I guess I just thought that I was improving, but I'm apparently supposed to be doing it exactly right already

    I'm going to flush the ones I have left and tough it out. I'm tired of feeling embarrassed and at the mercy of the drugs and the docs

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    It gets better, I promise. A few days of hell, then a slow coming out of the woods. I quit cold turkey from morphine. You're better off without. Just do not get caught up in the tramadol trap afterwards, then you will be dealing with a whole different kind of addiction. Best of luck!

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    Quote Originally Posted by super_mom View Post
    Well, it doesn't matter much because when I called to tell her nurse that I was taking sometimes two instead of one, she reminded me of the rx instructions and that doc won't be changing my dose and if I don't follow the instructions, she will stop writing th for me, etc. I totally understand, I guess I just thought that I was improving, but I'm apparently supposed to be doing it exactly right already

    I'm going to flush the ones I have left and tough it out. I'm tired of feeling embarrassed and at the mercy of the drugs and the docs



    I think that is the smartest thing you could do. Your habit is not so bad and over such a long period of time to justify subs. I would suggest you look at the Thomas Recipe for opiate detox. I've seen it work over and again. Check it out and you'll get lots of support if you go this route. I just wouldn't feel right telling you to go on subs with what you're taking. That would be an overkill in my opinion. Here is the link. God bless.

    http://www.drugs.com/forum/featured-...wal-35169.html
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    I am not a dr. My statements are based on years of experience and related education. Consult with the professional of your choice regarding matters of concern.

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    Thanks Robert, I really think you're right, I just wish I had time off. Actually I am
    Supposed to be working more now than ever and am on thin ice at work, totally unrelated to the pain and drugs. I wish I had a week to just get the worst behind m, but starting today I know the worst is still to come and I have no idea how I'm going to work AND detox. I'm really scared and wish I had a "bridge" to maybe next weekend or whatever. Wish in one hand...

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    Good luck to you, mom. I have been there, you can do it. I hope you have some support from someone, it helps to have a cheerleader.

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    Quote Originally Posted by super_mom View Post
    Thanks Robert, I really think you're right, I just wish I had time off. Actually I am
    Supposed to be working more now than ever and am on thin ice at work, totally unrelated to the pain and drugs. I wish I had a week to just get the worst behind m, but starting today I know the worst is still to come and I have no idea how I'm going to work AND detox. I'm really scared and wish I had a "bridge" to maybe next weekend or whatever. Wish in one hand...
    Supermom, hang in there it will get better, rough for a few days then it will settle. Listen to Roberts advice very important. He can get you through with as little discomfort as possible. Did you say you were a nurse? Not prying if so you have options not avaible to others. God Bless Surfdog

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    Thanks for the support! I am not a nurse, but I have some medical background and am in the field in other ways. I was supposed to work today, but cannot bring myself to do it. I can't do this any more days, so I don't know what to do.

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