I went to a epilepsy support group and explained my current
Topamax dilemma. the fact that i lost my job shortly after going on this. the timing was terrible, we were going through re-org, my boss was leaving, new blood and this stuff had deterimental affect on my memory/cognitive function (among other problems). bad impression, lost job, lost insurance, was stuck on topamax because like OP, my neuro refused to say ANYTHING NEGATIVE ABOUT THIS DRUG but she contradictted herself and put me on
exelon a drug for alzheimer's patience...she refused to help put me on another AED (anti epileptic) patient assistance. I let my home in LA for ten years where i had achieved some success pre-topamax and move back in with my mother in florida where i am weaning off topamax. when i told this to support group, a man took my hand and said "welcome to topamax club, you're me five years ago". I have found MANY others who have suffered as a result of adverse side effects (mostly cognive/memory related and psychological) on this drug. Something that the pharmaceutical, health care industry does not want you to know. Why would they, they're making bank on this drug!
All I have to say is that you are not alone. If you have a doctor who will not hear you, go far far away and find one who will. I made a huges mistake. I should've left my doctor when i still had a job/insurance instead of waiting til lit was too late and i was stuck on this drug for two years.
Incidentally, currently there's a class action suit against topamax for peopel who have gone blind or contracted glaucoma. (i had extreme eye problems on this drug but never went blinde, just experienced double vision)