Hi simplysad,
Please forgive my ignorance about the area where you live, but are there any universities with affiliated hospitals near you? That can be a great source for affordable psychiatric care. You often end up seeing very advanced students or residents (who are already medical doctors) who are under the supervision of attending physicians/faculty. If there isn't such a place within access, have you tried calling area hospitals to see if they have clinics? They often operate with sliding-scale fee structures and so should not charge you more than you can pay. Pharma companies also often have programs that enable you to get meds at a discount or for free, if you have a prescription.
Speaking of prescriptions...please, please don't ever self-prescribe and self-medicate with psych drugs again. I don't mean to be harsh with you. I've just done this myself and I can tell you from my own experience...you don't know what you're doing and you can harm yourself. It's very good to self-educate, but there's all kinds of information on the Internet--good and bad--and if you don't have clinical experience you simply don't know what you're doing. I have a PhD from an Ivy League school, and I generally think I'm pretty darn smart

, and I'm here to testify that I'm not qualified to treat myself with these drugs. In fact, I don't think that most
doctors are qualified to prescribe these meds; I think only specialists should be able to prescribe them. (That's not going to happen, of course, because there's too much money to be made by throwing them around like candy.

) Especially with your medical history, you need to be seen by a real-live doctor who can comprehend your whole situation.
I suffer from depression, too, and while therapy has been very helpful to me in lots of ways, it never helped me when I was in a bad depression. My cousin and my uncle had the same experience...therapy was interesting, but medication really helped them recover from depressive episodes. Everyone is different, of course, and I think it's critical to respect those differences, as well as the wishes of the patient. I deeply wish I had had medication sooner, but that's water under the bridge.
OK, sorry to go on for so long.

It's just something I feel strongly about.
Please let us know what happens, OK?