zenith,
Your reply probably won't be read by the person you intended it for since it was posted in March. But I hear what your saying. If you are taking
suboxone for a time and quit you will definitely suffer withdrawal symptoms. It is an agonist partial antagonist opiate. So yes, it is an opiate , but not in the traditonal sense. If you tapper with Suboxone properly you can come off opiates with very little withdrawals depending on type of opiate and length of use. But it does not work for everyone. Personally, I was on such huge amounts of opiates for a decade (over 3,500 in pills
Morphine,
Methadone,
Demerol, Oyxcodone,
Hydrocodone,
Propoxyphene and about 10 to 12 lollipops of 1400mcg
Fentanyl and 200 mcg patches every two days and 30 to 40 cc's of Dilaudid and Hydromorphine). So the buprenorphine injections did nothing for me at Detox. Took it for six days still suffered full withdrawal syndrome and then went home and went cold turkey. The combination of opiates and benzodiazepine withdrawals nearly killed me. I been off the opiates for almost 9 months now and I feel great. However, that was not until I was properly treated for my benzo withdrawals. Luckily, I did not suffer from PAWS, but I did suffer from chronic acute withdrawals from the benzos. The last 10 years while I was on the opiates my dose went up to a staggering 40 to 50 mg of Xanaz a day. They tappered me with 1 mg of
Klonopin every 12 hours for 4 days and I suffered a gradma seizure which almost killed me. So they just kept me hopped up on Halcion and Haldol the rest of the time. What a nightmare. Again, when I got home I went cold turkey. Most painful experience ever, and I know pain. Bedridden and over 120 seizures in first 30 days. After almost 5 months I was just getting worse: seizures, diarrhea, panic attacks, profuse sweating, cramping, "electric shock syndrome" and crippling insomnia. This was not living. What's the point of being"clean" if your dying. I went to the neurologist and psychiatrist and they performed diagnostics and told me that I had most likely done permanent damage to my CNS. So they placed me on a low medicinal dose of
diazepam. In a few days I was feeling well and most of my symptoms had vanished like magic. I'm not addicted to the benzo, but rather dependent. If I could I would never take another pill again in my life. But it is a quality of life issue. In the beginning I felt so guilty I had to take this med that I would skip doses and back came the seizures. My counselor helped me to see that it was like a diabetic taking
insulin. I don't crave the med, in fact my girlfriend makes sure I take my dose so she doesn't have to experience one of my seizures. Scars the hell out of her...don't blame her.
As for opiates I don't think it even comes close to benzo withdrawals, not even close. I kicked opiates 3 yrs ago and stayed "clean" for a little over two months. It hurt like hell, but after a couple of weeks I was fine. Even was working out and everything. I hope this doesn't sound harsh or insensitive, but I think a lot of people don't quit opiates because they are not willing to go through the pain. And yes there is pain. But for the most part it is just temporary and relatively short lived. Sometimes, you have to go through the fire to be cleansed. But I'm not judging anyone, if someone can't do it I understand. Everyone is different when it comes to what they can tolerate. For me it was a matter of life and death this time around. So I guess I was a little motivated. One thing I want to say is that nothing is impossible with God. And one day if it is His will I take those dam benzos and crush them under my feet. Hopefully, I will be delivered from my anxiety disorder which is why I have been on benzos for over 20 yrs. If not then I can live with it because it is in God's plan.
Finally I agree that this culture of our which is strewn with double standards need to approach addiction differently and more compassionately. People are not getting addicted to prescription meds on their own. Lets be honest many doctors have simply become legal dealers and pharmaceutical companies are in the business of keeping people sick. The pharmaceutical company that made the biggest profit the last two years was due to the sale of its pain med. Guess who?
And as you say Methadone does work for people who cannot break away from the addiction. It allows them to carry on a normal life if they are dosed properly and are not abusing other drugs. So everything needs to be put into perspective. This all or nothing society we live in is BS and hypocritical. God Bless
VJ