For the past 4 1/2 months, I've had what could in a very broad sense be called a severe migraine. Every single second of every single day during this time, I've had a persistent, sharp throbbing pain in my right temporal lobe, and it's driving me absolutely insane. I'm a 15 year old freshman and I've missed upwards of 50 school days because of this headache. I can barely do anything but lay in a dark room because of the pain physical exertion and light sensitivity bring.
The 6 neurologists, cardiologist, oncologist/hematologist, nephrologist, and several ER docs that I've seen haven't been able to figure out what is wrong with me, and have tried
topamax,
depakote (IV and pill), compazine(IV and pill), phenergen(IV, pill, and suppository), Toradol (IV), Indomethacin, Migranal,
Imitrex,
Zomig,
fioricet,
percocet,
tramadol(worthless),
morphine (IV), and hydromorphone(IV). So far I have $32,000 in medical bills (thank God for insurance) after about 70 hospital and doctor visits.
Now, I'm on 300mg of
Neurontin 3 times per day, some
trazodone to try to help me sleep through the pain at night, and some
lexapro to stop me from getting too depressed over all of this. None of these things are working to relieve my pain.
My headache specialist, Primary physician, and just about every other doctor that's not in the ER refuses to treat me with what seems to be the only thing that even touches my pain: narcotics. They keep insisting that narcotics are bad, without any reason, even though current studies suggest they're less harmful than some OTC drugs, and if I used them responsibly and as directed there is virtually no chance of addiction. I hate this stigma against what seems to be the one thing that will give me a chance at at least being functional.
I'm set to have a lumbar puncture sometime soon, even though the doctors said it's a shot in the dark.
I'm tired of being a human pincushion and a guinea-pig.
How can I get my doctors to actually provide me with the pain relief I need? I can't stand this headache anymore, I've just about gone crazy.