[iloerose]

Eric, hopefully you will be able to relax more at home, away from work. I was thinking of something my grandma used to say: "he has a hitch in his get-along". Hope your "hitch" goes smoother tomorrow.

IloeRose

[terry7145151]

Hi Eric,

Day 2 for me to, OMG last night was soooooo hard, I was not sure I was gonna make it......I camped out in my bathroom, I even bought the TV in there.....thats sounds so weird, but i had to i could not even get out of the hot bath, there was no sense. I would go back to bed, and the leg cramps were so bad i would just go back to the tub anyway. Day 3 tomorrow, I hope we both feel better and anyone else that is living this nightmare. I'm taking this pain pill today that is taking away the leg cramps, i got it from my doctor, its actually for arthiritis, and no pain in the legs, just a little of that creepy crawling feeling.....but heck i can live with that. I hope you feel better Eric. I will pray for you and me and everyone else that is experiencing this....i know its no picnic.

Terry

[mottam]

Eric:
Since I joined this community I have been following your thread.

I'm sure that it feels like you just reset the clock. You have been strong in the past, and know what to excpect: A few days of feeling like ********, and then you are back to where you were before your surgery. I will keep your recovery in my prayers.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that as a "newbie", your story inspired and helped me.

Wishing you a quick and successful recovery - have a peaceful weekend.

Kindest Regards

Originally Posted by mottam

Eric:
Since I joined this community I have been following your thread.

I'm sure that it feels like you just reset the clock. You have been strong in the past, and know what to excpect: A few days of feeling like ********, and then you are back to where you were before your surgery. I will keep your recovery in my prayers.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that as a "newbie", your story inspired and helped me.

Wishing you a quick and successful recovery - have a peaceful weekend.

Kindest Regards

I am so glad that my story could help you that is the primary reason I come here for the support I need and to help others. I am at day 3 now and believe it or not I am doing much better. I guess since this "relapse" was a short one the w/d's are not going to last as long.

Thanks Again for your kind words and prayers.

AFSGTSAM aka Eric

Originally Posted by terry7145151

Hi Eric,

Day 2 for me to, OMG last night was soooooo hard, I was not sure I was gonna make it......I camped out in my bathroom, I even bought the TV in there.....thats sounds so weird, but i had to i could not even get out of the hot bath, there was no sense. I would go back to bed, and the leg cramps were so bad i would just go back to the tub anyway. Day 3 tomorrow, I hope we both feel better and anyone else that is living this nightmare. I'm taking this pain pill today that is taking away the leg cramps, i got it from my doctor, its actually for arthiritis, and no pain in the legs, just a little of that creepy crawling feeling.....but heck i can live with that. I hope you feel better Eric. I will pray for you and me and everyone else that is experiencing this....i know its no picnic.

Terry

Day 2 for me and you was the worst, leg cramps, sweating and the more than half dozen visits to the bathroom were hell on Earth. The good news for me and hopefully you is I am doing much better today. Last night I took a Flexril (muscle relaxer) and 2 Tylenol PM's and they helped me fall asleep. I got a lot of sleep last night....almost 10 hours of it with only a few small bathroom interruptions. I am on day 3 now and wow I feel better I guess since this "relapse" was so short in duration the w/d's are not going to last as long (knock on wood). At this point I just seem to have a mild case of the blahs. I think and pray the worst is over now and I wish the same for you as well. Please stay strong and tough it out you can and will make it !!!

Best Best wishes in your recovery !!!

AFSGTSAM aka Eric

[iloerose]

Good morning! So glad to hear that you're feeling better today! and I hope this signals that your w/d is easing up, you've been through so much with your surgery and all. So you get to relax then on your day off. Have a good one!

IloeRose

I guess I spoke too soon, I woke up feeling great and now 4 hours later I have a little case of the jitters. The muscle spasms are 90% better but I do have the shakes. I know in a few days I will be feeling 100% better i just need to get there.

Thanks for the kind words rose !!

AFSGTSAM

[caughtagain]

AFSGTSAM... I just wanted to chime in too, when I was reading the posts before I decided to get clean, I also Followed your thread. Your words were inspirational and positive. There were many times I drew from the strength of your words. THank you. I do not consider a medical procedure a relapse and you should be as proud today as you deserve to be. We are all warriors here and I am proud to be one among many. We are fighters. So, I am wishing you a good today and a better tomorrow. CA

Caughtagain,

Thanks for the kind words I joined this forum for support during one of the toughest times of my life and now I need help again and you are all here. One great thing to me is when people like you tell me that my story helped someone get clean. When that happens I know how Robert feels helping all these people in here and for that I thank you for the kind words.
I am now at day 4 and most of the w/d's are gone, just a few muscle aches and a general lack of energy but I think I am almost done. Since the surgery I was only using vics and percs for 3-4 weeks so I think the short duration of my re-use is keeping the w/d's at a shorter period of time.

Again I wish everyone who reads this post nothing but best wishes and prayers in their recovery it is so worth it to be clean and free.

AFSGTSAM aka Eric

Here I am at day 6 and things are returning to normal. I am back at work and with the exception of a slight lack of energy and a little bit of an off feeling I am doing well. I just hope and pray I never ever put myself through this ******** again !!
I hope all of you are doing well in your own personal recovery plans and extend you my best wishes.

Eric

[mottam]

Eric:

Great to hear! Keep up the good fight.

Your friend in addicition

mottam

It is now day 9 since my "relapse" and I feel great, almost 100% normal. Yesterday was another story I had some seconday w/d symptoms come back and I had the chills and shakes along with some pill craving again, it was not real serious but more than enough to make me uncomfortable and take a few showers to calm down. But now that is gone and I continue on the road to a permenant long tem recovery. I hope all of you are doing well and best wishes for a speedy recovery for all.

AFSGTSAM aka Eric

[mottam]

Originally Posted by AFSGTSAM

It is now day 9 since my "relapse" and I feel great, almost 100% normal. Yesterday was another story I had some seconday w/d symptoms come back and I had the chills and shakes along with some pill craving again, it was not real serious but more than enough to make me uncomfortable and take a few showers to calm down. But now that is gone and I continue on the road to a permenant long tem recovery. I hope all of you are doing well and best wishes for a speedy recovery for all.

AFSGTSAM aka Eric

Welcome back to the "other side" my friend!
Glad to hear that, despite the barriers put up in front of you, YOU ARE KICKING BUTT!

Enjoy your holiday weekend. Since the w/ds are almost all gone - that appetite should be kicking back in big time -
Get yourself some good BBQ material - YOU DESERVE IT!

May your mind, body, and soul be at peace.

Tom

[Freedom4me]

Eric,
I am so happy this slight set back went fairly well for you. I think you have proven that you can take those pills only when you really need them for a medical procedure and then give them up when you no longer need them. That is a big step. I know Melinda proved it and now Robert will prove it. It is a totally diffferent feeling when you take them to relieve terrible pain. It doesn't give you a buzz, it just helps you not hurt. I know if it ever happens to me I will be very open with my husband and have him dispense them to me as prescribed and set a time to be off of them as Melinda did. Any way, you are an inspiration to many. I have been pill free since Feb. and I don't miss them at all. But wouldn't want to be in a room alone with them lol!!! Not quite that far along yet, ha ha.

[mottam]

Eric:
Good morning.

Just checking in buddy. Hope all is going well.

[Brian G]

Originally Posted by AFSGTSAM

It is now day 9 since my "relapse" and I feel great, almost 100% normal. Yesterday was another story I had some seconday w/d symptoms come back and I had the chills and shakes along with some pill craving again, it was not real serious but more than enough to make me uncomfortable and take a few showers to calm down. But now that is gone and I continue on the road to a permenant long tem recovery. I hope all of you are doing well and best wishes for a speedy recovery for all.

AFSGTSAM aka Eric

Wow Man i'm reading up and see you been throu allot glad your feeling better and on the right track again god bless and keep up the great work ....

BG

It has been more than two weeks now and doing well, I am stabilizing out and returning to my normal state. It is like coming back to life again and since the surgery a much improved life. I keep on praying for all of you in recovery...KEEP IT UP !!

AFSGTSAM

[mottam]

Eric:
Great to hear you are doing well.
Keep up the good fight!

As always, one day at a time.

Kindest Regards

Tom

Tom,

Thanks again for the kind words.

I truly think that as more and more time passes I am really done with this, I do not want opiates anymore, not in my house, not in my body not at ALL !!

Life is getting better my family is happier and the future looks better.

Thank You all for your support !!

Eric

I am at day 17 and doing great the urges are gone and I DO NOT WANT OPIATES ANYMORE. No matter what my mind or body tells me I know I do not want them. This cycle will end.

I know this is not a political room but I do want to ask one thing of all of you.

Do not forget what happened on 9-11-01 !!
To this day there are troops serving all over the globe protecting the free world, we must honor them. Many like myself come home as veterans and have medical issues related to their military/combat service. Many have pain issues and are prescribed and yes sometimes overprescribed opiate pain killers. They need help too, if you know of anyone in this situation offer a hand of help, ask them to seek the VA for assistance. Most of all thank them for your freedom and way of life.

Thank you all for your support during my recovery and I wish all of you the best in yours too.

AFSGTSAM aka Eric

[mottam]

Eric:
Good afternoon.
I went to a prayer service this morning.
I live in the NYC Metro area (suburb) - believe me - it is still very fresh in everyone's memory here!
We lost 21 people from my borough alone.

Anyway, thank you for your service. Too many people take that for granted!

Hoping all is well with you, Eric. Congrats on day 17!

Kindest Regards

Tom

[caughtagain]

Eric, I just wanted to hop over and thank you for your service to our country on this day of reflection. My brother is still in, he has 29 years in and we do need to remember that freedom is anything but free. God Bless the USA!! CA

Thank You Tom and CA for the kind words it was my privilage to serve in the military for those many years, I loved every minute of it no matter how tough the times were and I would do it all over again.

I am in my 3rd week and I am getting some of those mental urges now and then, and some minor physical urges too (probably mental too). I will fight through this I do NOT want to go back down that road yet again.

I hope everyone is doing well and staying the course to recovery !!

Best Wishes

AFGSTSAM aka Eric

[mottam]

Originally Posted by AFSGTSAM

Thank You Tom and CA for the kind words it was my privilage to serve in the military for those many years, I loved every minute of it no matter how tough the times were and I would do it all over again.

I am in my 3rd week and I am getting some of those mental urges now and then, and some minor physical urges too (probably mental too). I will fight through this I do NOT want to go back down that road yet again.

I hope everyone is doing well and staying the course to recovery !!

Best Wishes

AFGSTSAM aka Eric

Eric:
Stay strong - you can fight those urges.
Post as often as you need to. It is so cool that we can lean on each other.
I am finishing up day 50, and still have urges. I just tell them "f*%k you"!

Anyway, it has come to mean a lot to me to have this new family/friends.
Have a good night, Eric.

Kindest Regards
Tom

[intelmetal]

Eric, I just wanted to personally thank you for your service to this great nation. You are a true PATRIOT and a warrior. You survived war and you are whipping an addiction, what could be more courageous than that ? I am so happy for you and just plain proud of you. Do not ever abuse drugs again. They are a road to nowhere !
My dad served in the Navy for 4 years, and he is one awesome man. He was a good role model for me, but I was a rebel and took the wrong path. Now that I am clean, I can reflect on all the things my dad tried to teach me. He was a lot smarter than I gave him credit for. I still have some guilt issues about not taking his advise as it pertains to alcohol/drug abuse.
Let us celebrate our sobriety and embrace it. Don't Look Back ! ( Boston )
Keep on Rocking !
Steve

[mottam]

Eric:
You take care of yourself, buddy.
Best of luck - keep up the good fight.
I pray every day/night for ALL of us suffering addicts.

Thank you for what you have shared.

Kindest Regards

Thomas

[mottam]

Eric:
You doing OK, my friend?
Stay tough.

Tom

Tom and Intel,

Thank You for the kind words again it was a strange thing almost like the w/d's were coming back a little bit, it has subsided now. No way no how am I going back to my old ways I am done with that it is not worth it.
intel, Thank your father for his service too he earned our respect too, the military is a great way for people to get their lives in order and to "grow up" the Air Force helped and changed my life for the better.
Tom, congrats on day 50 you are doing great and I can see you will be a true success story, I am right behind you I am no longer taking it day by day but going week by week then hopefully month and years and before I know it this was a bad dream that is long gone.

Keep it up and stay strong too !!

Eric

[mottam]

Originally Posted by AFSGTSAM

Tom and Intel,

Thank You for the kind words again it was a strange thing almost like the w/d's were coming back a little bit, it has subsided now. No way no how am I going back to my old ways I am done with that it is not worth it.
intel, Thank your father for his service too he earned our respect too, the military is a great way for people to get their lives in order and to "grow up" the Air Force helped and changed my life for the better.
Tom, congrats on day 50 you are doing great and I can see you will be a true success story, I am right behind you I am no longer taking it day by day but going week by week then hopefully month and years and before I know it this was a bad dream that is long gone.

Keep it up and stay strong too !!

Eric

Eric:
You sound in high spirits - good for you!
You will beat this thing, my friend. Keep working on doing the right things.
For what it is worth - I have had a few times when it felt like the w/ds were coming back - then it ended. I think for us - it is just going to take a while for our minds and bodies to heal.
Stay strong, buddy. Have a good evening - off to my son's football!

Tom

Thanks Tom,

Yeah I am doing well, this will be a long term battle and I will keep with it, my new life is worth that. I am so glad you have made it this far too we both have the determination to make it for good.
How did your sons football game turn out ?
I am a big NFL fan, and my team is the Raiders...yes I know we suck but I am a fan and stick with them good times and bad.
I hope you enjoy your weekend and keep on posting.

Eric